Tuesday, April 14, 2009

SHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Okay so I know that a lot of people have been putting up their Easter blogs but not us.... well the reason is that in our home Easter has yet to happen.... I know right?! How could you just put off something like that? Well let me explain.... Sam is little and has no way of reaching the calender let alone understanding it... We were going to head over to my mom's for Easter like we did last year but on Friday she gave me a call and said that we would have to put it off a week... She is fine but was a little sick and knew that she didn't have the energy for the two boys... Well it was a good thing because we all have the nasty bug that is going around. Sunday we all were to sick to even get up and go to church. Mom and Jim are heading over to this side of the mountains on Thursday and Sam, Calvin and I are going to head back with them and stay for a bit and then Brad is going to come and gather us up to go home. Mom had already gotten the Easter stuff so to save myself a few pounds I decided to only have one basket to eat instead of two!! We will be getting a post up on how our Easter went next week or whenever it happens....


Here are a few pics from last Easter... I would say look how big Sam has gotten but he still wears this outfit to church... hahaha the joys of having a child that grows slowly. all of his cloths last a whole lot longer!
Don't you just love the pout face?!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Yummy Mummy

So Tisha makes these awesome baby products and is having a giveaway and I wants me a new stylish diaper bag! Check out her stuff at http://www.yummymummymaternity.ca/

Friday, April 10, 2009

Me behind the curtain

So lately I have been reading a lot of blogs by mom's. I have been blog-stalking (as I call it) you know... when you go and read peoples blogs that you don't know or you went to school with or went to church with but you don't really know them... anywho I do it.. I was reading some and they were talking about the truths about being a mom.. you know.. the things that you do but act like you don't.. I really liked this idea. I have been feeling a little isolated lately. We moved not to long before Calvin was born and I still haven't really found a good fit in our new ward. We were in the same ward from the time Brad and I were married and even though we didn't move that far it is sad to not see the familiar faces at church. I know it will just take some time but it is still hard. I wasn't really one to go out a whole lot before and it is even less now. Most of my days are spent at home counting down the hours till Brad gets home. I look at a lot of the mothers I know and I don't know how they do it! Their homes are clean and they always have supper on the table... That is so not me! I feel like I'm failing most of the time! I look around my house and see dirty clothes and toys that need to be picked up and dishes in the sink and I don't know where to start and how to fix it. Brad tells me that it is fine... after all you just had a baby and no one expects you to be perfect.. I have to admit it helps a bit but I can't live on excesses forever! Before Calvin was born Brad would say it was okay because I was pregnant... but I have come to realize that for most of our marriage I have been either pregnant or just had a baby so I have to stop using those as excesses.... It's hard... Really hard! There is a big part of me that just wants to continue to be an ostrich and keep my head in the sand but that does no good at all! I find that a lot of the time I feel like I'm letting my boys down. There are a lot of days that we all stay in our pj's and don't eat the most healthy food....(Sam's eating chocolate chips from my big Costco bag right now and I'm letting him because that way I can type...) Our TV is on almost all the time... in fact it is the first thing Sam does when he gets up in the morning. I don't think that I'm a bad mom just one that is taking the easy way out at times. I find at times I'm yelling a lot more than I ever thought I would... Sometimes I feel like it's the only way to get Sam to even look at me. I really miss talking to adults!! Most of the day my conversations consist of the ramblings of a 22 month old and that leaves something to be desired...but then if I do get to talk to adults all I have to talk about is the kids! It's a total catch 22! Don't get me wrong I love my boys more than I ever thought I could but it is hard to be a mom! there is always more that needs to be done and not enough time to do it in!
There are a lot of happy things too! Sam is turning into his own little person everyday. It's amazing to see how much he is learning every day... Calvin is still in the "little blob" faze but every once in a while we get a little smile from him and I know it is only a mater of time until he is just a wild and crazy and fun as his big brother.
They say that time flies when your kids are young and that you'll look back and wonder where the years have gone... I hope that I will be able to look back and be happy with what I see! What about you?